“I looked straight through you just then, I was looking for someone sitting down.” I overheard this in a coffee shop the other day as a woman walked in looking for her mum. She hadn’t see her standing right in front of her.
It made me think of all the early years of my meditation. Going into meditations with expectations of finding ‘peace’ or ‘bliss’ and finding nothing but numb feet and boredom.
It took me a long time to understand that I’m not meant to be looking for anything, but that I should be seeing what is.
Learning this in meditation led to me recognising this in my every day life. How often had I missed what was right in front of me because I was expecting something else? What moments? What opportunities? What connections?
In yoga classes, I’m often asked “where am I supposed to be feeling it?” To which I reply “where do you feel it?” The response is always whatever the practitioner is feeling in that moment, to which I say “There you are”.
Tune in and check it out.